This is the second semester of my Junior year in college. I remember my parallel semester is high school was equally challenging, filled with questions and curiosities. Where to go to school, what to study? To take out loans, to stay in state? I considered myself lucky in knowing at least from an early age what I wanted to study.
What if I was wrong? I keep hearing this new-age "Secret" thing, the whole image your future and it's yours. I'm having trouble believing it though. Whenever I go work in the lab or studios, I find myself pulling my hair out in frustration. So many things can go wrong when designing something you're going to make. I used to watch the upperclassmen make garments and wonder why it took so long, what could they possibly be altering for the thousandth time? Now I think I finally understand.
Even if I wish really, really hard for my future to unfold itself for me as I would like, I need to take the steps for it to follow out in the path I desire. If every action has a reaction, I am the responsible catalyst to set the initial action in motion. The only problem is, frankly, I don't feel like it. I being avalanched by competition. I am afraid. I have a lot of questions, and I know the answers will appear.
I just don't feel like waiting.
I want to know what's going to happen. I want to know if I can do it, not just believe in myself or hear it from the people in my life who care. I want to do something and be proud of it.
A friend said a few days ago everything we experience becomes mostly how feel about it, and not what it actually is or was. So, if these theories are correct, I have the power to create my life because I control my past by how I emotionally perceive it, and my future by how I visualize it. Vonnegut once said "We are who we pretend to be." Is success just in our own mental imagination? Can we become our own gods, muses, magicians merely by wishing it so?
Better start exercising my cranium then.
Profile of Galliano for Dior show this week.
Another Dior close-up.
These. shoes. are. stunning.
[Homegirl might wanna beef up her ankles or something though, looking a little loose. Hand them over, they might fit me (; ]
Ladylike colors, super pretty.
Viktor & Rolf.
My design teacher in Milan told me their former flagship store there was built upside down. For example, the chandelier was on the floor. Aside from defying gravity, these two have defied every standard in the industry and never fail to impress. I loved this collection.
Favorite piece, I want it.
"When you're as arrogant as we are, you're always disappointed because you think you deserve more."
-Chester French.
♥ Lini.
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