I want so badly to believe...

You know how it's supposedly impossible to be the best at anything because someone out there will always be better and because so much in life is subject to objectivity? Somethings go without questioning... Fire burns, cottons feels soft, if you go outside when it's raining, you'll get wet. These are irrefutable facts, while other matters are opinions- opinions on design, any and every type of design. Since everyone has their personal taste, some styles of design appeal to certain people whereas different forms appeal to others. This makes the task of deeming anyone "the best" impossible, no?

Yes, it is not possible to be the absolute best. You can be better then someone else, but then someone will be better then you. Then go ask a different set of people and the ranking will realign all over, so it goes.

I want to be the best. Or, I formerly did. Today I am very miserable and I feel like the woman in the photo above taken by Rankin. I could settle for being average at the moment, seeing as I lately cannot do a single thing correctly. I hate questioning myself and my ability to do what I love most. I really believe the goal of mankind is to progress constantly by making everything more intelligent, beautiful, just, and efficient. I'm just making a whole lot of ugly recently when I want so badly to design well, to contribute to the progress of the world into the more elegant state she constantly needs to evolve into. I think people underestimate the power of aesthetics, they are not vain or futile. They actually affect much, much more then we probably realize.

I hope I have it. I hope I am not like someone who merely loves music yet cannot play single note, or loves gourmet food but can hardly cook pasta. I don't merely want to love design, recognize good design, or be around good design as a hobby. I want to be fluent in it. I want it ooze from my pores. I want recognition, but I want to deserve it.

Another photo by Rankin.

Fell in love with this man's work today.

The color contrast in this is gorgeous.

So memorable, but such a simple composition.

Well good for you, I'm still seeking refuge.

Un bacio from Lini the Refugee ♥