Love & Other Equally Temporary Drugs

My mother hates avocados.

She claims she ate far too many as a child. A lifetime's worth consumed far too quickly, now she can barely stomach the sight of them.

Seems a shame since she once loved avocados so much.

How do we learn to love things properly without destroying them? It's always too much, too little, too soon, or too late. When all around us relationships end, and generally either violently, legally, or publicly I just find it so hard to believe in long term commitment. The other day I caught myself being visibly angry at the shampoo I had been using for about three years because it just wasn't working out the same.

We broke up by the way. I'm seeing someone new in a sleeker bottle with a fresher scent.

What is the life expectancy of love? According to my calculations, if you factor in overinflated expectations, wandering eyes, the rare miracle of evoking genuine, reciprocated emotions, and the ever rising threshold of what it takes to keep people satisfied, love should last about 15.6 milliseconds. If a bottle of shampoo broke my heart, how can I trust a human being? I mean my hair follicles are sensitive, but I suspect my feelings may be a little bit more.

Just knowing myself, just seeing other people, just watching my generation evolve... I wonder if forever can be found, in anything from people to Pantene Pro-V*.

"I want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real."

-Clark Gable, Postal Service

*I do not use Pantene Pro-v. I do not recommend that use use Pantene Pro-V. It is just an example of shampoo.

♥ Lini.